Funk

Is it just me, or does it seem like the news has been so dull lately? I go to YME each day and used to look forward to a finding a variety of interesting things going on, but lately it's been so dull. I just look at it and it seems to be the same stories everyday. There was a story on there today about a text book in India claiming that donkeys are better than wives because they're more loyal, but when you read the article, it seems to me that while that part of the country probably doesn't value women they way they should, it was more an attempt at humor that fell flat. In other words, it was hardly news worthy. I guess it's better when news is dull because it means nothing too horrible is going on.

I guess the real problem is that I'm in a bit of a funk. I am not eating well and have let D's bum leg stop me from working out... in other words, I'm using someone else's injury as a mental excuse to let myself off the hook. At least while I'm walking the dogs separately for a while, it means that I walk 3 miles a day and that second hike up the hill is a killer. I hadn't realized how easy one hike had gotten until I had to do it a second time with Turtle today. Tonight's dinner for me consisted of eating a plain avocado with chips - I didn't even bother to scoop the avocado out first - I just dipped the chips right into the avocado. I followed this with a lovely dessert of chocolate chips. The other thing really bumming me out is the changes we've had to make for Eddie. I am really struggling with it. It's so frustrating because I can definitely see a difference in his behavior around the house so I think they're needed changes, but I am so sad at giving up the snuggling on the bed. I guess I'm just being selfish and not giving him what he needs to be more balanced, but this is much harder than I thought it would be. He has always helped me when D was gone to not get lonely and now I just miss D.

I'm going to make myself some decaffeinated tea and go upstairs and read my book. That should make me feel a little better and get my mind off things.