Whine-fest

I just had our carpets cleaned. Not the whole house. Just the living room, stairs, and hallway. I just went with our usual guy assuming I'd be able to handle my obsessing about the health of such cleaning. Then, I IM'd with RG, who casually mentioned getting "green" carpet cleaners was on her list of to do's. I reiterated that I will not become paranoid about every little thing, both to her and myself. Damn it! It didn't work. I am now worried I have permanently damaged Avery by not properly researching carpet cleaners and eco-friendly options. Granted, the guy we use says he is "environmentally safe." But my guess is that he's just your run-of-the-mill carpet cleaner, maybe slightly better. At least the house doesn't smell chemical-y.

I struggle with this stuff all the time. I can become so obsessive about stuff, so I do my best to not over think things. But then it's hard for me to predict what I'm OK with and what I'm not. Ah well, what's done is done. I know to do research on this one next time (or better yet, do what I always do and let RG do the research and then just benefit from it). At least all the cleaning products in regular rotation are the environmentally friendly ones, including those used by the house cleaners.

I have been more tired this week than other weeks. Maybe the night feedings are starting to wear on me? They don't seem that bad. I think it's mostly that I'm eating like crap. I find it so much harder to eat well during the day with Avery in the house than before. I'm not sure why.

Ugh. This post is turning out to be a big whine-fest. Yesterday was a relatively rough day in the land of motherhood. Avery has reached a point where she whines rather than cries when she wants something. So if she's playing in the play yard and wants food or to be picked up, she'll make this dull whiny noise. Sometimes I can't get there immediately and that constant, dull whine drives me absolutely crazy. I can totally handle crying. Crying barely registers as an annoyance for me. But whining is so grating. I hope this is a phase that is short-lived! Clearly, I try to get to her as soon as possible - for her sake and mine - but when the dogs need to be fed, I need to get breakfast for myself, and get things going in the morning, it's a few minutes sometimes.

Not my day. I did this big long response post on my favorite baby products for the OAFS Yahoo Group and I thought it posted, but now it seems to be missing. Grrrr. Oh well, I guess everyone can live without my two cents.