Envelopes

365

I thought about signing up to do the blogging everyday this year, but thought, "Why would I do that?  I blog everyday anyway."  Ha.  Goes to show that 2011 is the year everything will change apparently.  The lack of blogging isn't depression or anxiety or even lack of interest.  I don't know what it is.

Grace

I loved this article about grace. 

Diet (and some bitching and moaning)

It's day 12.  I'm still on track.  I'm frustrated because yesterday, after sleeping 12 hours (that is not a typo) on Saturday night, I had to take another hour nap in the morning because I was so exhausted.  My energy was just non-existent all morning.  It rebounded a bit about 7 pm, but I still went to bed exhausted last night.

I would have thought I'd be seeing big changes in my energy by now.  I'm so very frustrated that I'm not.  I think I do have more energy during my waking hours, but the need for excessive sleep is still there and things exhaust me that shouldn't given my age and (new) diet.  Seriously.  I'm pissed off about it.

Yesterday was the first day I came to breaking on the diet, and not because I was craving any sort of food, but merely out of frustration.  Lack of results is frustrating as hell.  Then, it's even worse when I start thinking about the what ifs.  What if the diet doesn't work?  What if I'm still exhausted?  What do I do then?  I've tried the Western medicine route.  After the diet, I'll have given the alternative medicine route a try.  At this point, it's all made worse because I'm not depressed right now.  That means I want to do things, but I can't.  When I'm depressed, the lack of energy is just that.  It's not something that's standing in the way of me doing things since I don't want to do anything due to the depression.  The fatigue without the depression sucks.  

Valentine's Day

I got Avery and D gifts for V-day.  We never do Valentine's Day gifts, but I thought of something, so I got them as gifts: matching official jerseys for the Timbers games.  Since D bought season tickets for he and Avery, I thought they needed matching shirts.

Crazy

The really annoying part of my fatigue is that I usually gain energy about 7 pm - midnight.  Who gets their energy then, I ask?  So, last night I decided to make Valentine's Day cards and envelopes for Avery's preschool class.

I made the envelopes out of wrapping paper.  I tried with just one sheet, but that was too thin.  So then I folded the paper in half and glued it together to make a thicker sheet.  This also means that the inside of the envelopes have the pattern, too!

I then made cards and affixed some hearts to the cards.  Now, Avery and I need to put her name on the cards, then put some stickers on the outside of the envelopes to seal them.

A few things I feel the need to note:

• Yes, I do think Avery should have participated more, however, she is just not into crafts yet.  Her attention span for crafts is less than 30 seconds.  
• Yes, I spent a ton of time doing this and no preschoolers are going to give a crap that I made them cards and envelopes.  I did it because I like to have an activity that focuses on details such that it occupies my mind almost completely.  I say almost because we were watching TV while I did all this.  
• No, the cards are not that impressive from a crafting standpoint, but I wanted to do small ones and well, it's more about the activity than the end results for me.